This weekend didn't turn out to be as joyous as I would have like it. Instead of being super happy that Travis returned from his 3 week long work trip, we are grieving the loss of our first born, Oscar.
I've talked about him in the past but not very much recently.
He has been sick with a thyroid issue, diabetes, went blind due to the diabetes, and then a new skin issue for the last few years. Even though he has been sick, this was totally unexpected and wasn't even from any of the above.
But I don't want to talk about his sickness.
Let me talk tell you more about him.
We got this little cutie about 6 months after we got married when he was 4 months old.
We looked all over for a small dog that didn't shed and found him a few hours away in North Carolina so down we went one weekend.
There was only him and 2 of his siblings left. He was the calmest one when we walked up to the cage and he totally tricked us! lol
His originally name was actually Guns and one of his sisters was Roses but we decided to change his name to Oscar on our ride home. Not sure how we decided on Oscar but it just seemed to fit although Guns would have fit him just fine as well since he turned out to be a solid ball of muscle!
He was a totally ball of energy going nonstop day and night.
He would play fetch until he was literally physically exhausted and could barely move.
It was his most favorite thing in the world.
His actually favorite thing was his daddy!
Even though Travis left for a deployment when he was only 6 mths old, this boy was strictly a daddy's boy! And the feeling was mutual
He believed he was a cat at times. He would lay on top of the back cushions of our couch or chairs regularly.
He would even hang out with his brother on top of his cage looking out the window together.
He enjoyed a good sun puddle on a sunny day.
And even loved playing in the snow!
No matter how cold, how covered in snowballs he was, he would run around and play and eat the snow.
Going for a swim was also fun but he sure didn't enjoy the baths afterwards.
He loved any and everyone he meant including his little brother and sisters.
And he was the cutest little Santa you ever did see at Christmas!
He's been with us through ever move.
He got used to them and would find his place during move in and out and would love the car rides to our next location.
Oscar has been my little buddy through 3 deployments. His daddy was gone but he stuck by my side no matter what.
As he got older, he slowed down a bit.
He'd find a comfortable spot to relax more often.
He'd take up the whole couch if he could.
And he still enjoyed those warm sunny days.
But even with being sick he still loved life and wanted to play!
This was a shot from this Christmas. I love this shot of him.
I wonder what he is thinking as he stares at the tree.
Oscar was a loyal pooch.
No matter what, he was by your side.
He drove me nuts, a lot of the time, but he was my little Bubba.
He actually knew we were having girls before we did!
He predicted it with balloons. We had pink and blue balloons and asked him to pop the one that the baby was. BOTH pregnancies he popped the pink balloons no matter how many times we asked him. HOW CRAZY COOL IS THAT?!
I do have a little bit of mom guilt.
I feel like I should have known he was as sick as he was especially since I was the only one with him the last 3 weeks.
Friday night was horrible and I wish I did more so help him even though I feel like I did all that I really could.
And then when I took him to the vet Saturday morning, I didn't say goodbye to him before the vet quickly rushed him off but I thought I would be picking him back up that afternoon.
Travis came home and he went to pick him up when we got the bad news that he was far worse than we first thought so he was the only one there in the end.
I know he was happy with his life but I still feel bad.
The vet gave us this sweet little paw print to keep after we was put to sleep.
I'm so happy to have it.
Since it just happened, I'm still having my breakdowns.
I still expect to see him walk around the corner.
I keep looking for him at the front door.
I know that all will pass over time but I didn't expect to take this as hard as I am.
Pets are apart of your family and losing them is just as hard as losing a human family member.
But I am thankful that they always leave a permanent place on our hearts.
Sorry for the sad post today.
I just felt like I needed to share the normal part of our everyday life, probably more for me than for you.
RIP my handsome boy, Oscar, aka- Bubba
I hope you really know how much I really did love you.